t's all just so sad..

we all just so sad.
actually, i'm so sad, lately..

sad is the most right word to describing the mess i've done to my mom, fam, pals, and my all time favorite boy.

i really don't mind, if maybe starts from now on.. i can't go anywhere, i can't go
with my pals from mall to mall schedule.. i really don't mind.

Aku sendiri merasa sangat beruntung karena aku ga hanya bisa menikmati dan mencintai orang dari belakang punggungnya, tapi aku bisa meluk, berhadapan langsung dan berbagi cerita sama dia. Bahagia? Oh way too happy, i guess. Feeling completed. Rasanya, selalu ada 'rumah' kedua saat aku merasa semua orang lagi super unfair. Intinya, selalu ada tempat dimana aku merasa special.

Tapi (oh how i hate every 'but' part on every happy beginning) sadly, setiap mau ke suatu tujuan, jalannya pasti bumpy. Aku benci fight yang lasts sampe beberapa hari. Bikin cape, hati ga tenang,